We All Have To Choose

There is a line from a poem by Robert Frost. He tells of coming to a fork in the road, a place to decide where his life is going, & he says that he is "sorry I cannot travel both roads & be one traveller".

He was sorry. I'm sorry. We're all sorry about that one.

But one person can never travel two roads. We all have to choose.

It would help if the decisions were more clear-cut, if one road guaranteed success & happiness & the other was posted "Dead End". But, almost always, at the fork, the choices look about the same, equally inviting.

Sometimes I wonder about the road not taken. Did I do the right thing? Maybe I'll never know. I seem to keep taking the road less travelled by & that has made all the difference. I think, for the better.

But to travel both roads & see where they lead... wouldn't it be nice.

Making It Through Another Day

*phew* Everything's happening so fast I don't have time to breathe! I have to study for quiz, mid-sem exam, another mid-sem exam, and another mid-sem exam, quiz, another quiz, work on my assignment, sit for another quiz... & by the time all this is over, finals is here! Gosh, I don't know how I'll survive this.

Anyway, I went to EKKA last week, & it was fun! For those that don't know what EKKA is, u can check it out here. hehe.. I hate uploading photos here, because it's so freakin' slow! You guys can check out my Facebook account though, I've uploaded photos & videos there. :)

There were exhibitions, stalls where you can win soft toys, stalls where you can buy soft toys (if you're really bad & can't win the soft toys. lol). I even saw a dog competition, & at night there were performances & fireworks! Oh, & over here, cotton candy is called fairy floss. Hehe.. Really fancy name.

Phuong, Hwai Li & I sat on the ferris wheel & took lots of lovely pictures on it! The view was nice, the sun was bright & the sky was blue.. :))) I also had the nicest mango yoghurt in my life! It's much nicer than the one Chin Tuck tries to feed me back home. =P

Phuong bought this inflattable hammer with Simpsons all over it, & it squeeks when you hit it on something! Really cute! & I bought a halo! Was thinking of buying the angel's wings too, but settled for just the halo. Then Hwai Li felt like she needed to buy something also, & she bought herself a puppy soft toy (because she doesn't think that she can win it by playing the games. =P).

By that time it was already evening & we waited outdoors to watch the fireworks, on a winter night. There were lots of performances, like this monster truck running over some cars. I usually get to see this on tv only! Just go see the pictures on facebook la. hehe.. Then finally, the fireworks. I'm so proud of my camera. It exceeded my expectations. :)

I should really do something more productive with my time, like study. *sigh*

Rainbow After the Rain

Have you ever felt that you wanted something so badly, but no matter how hard you try, it just seems to get further away from your grasp? I have. For the past week or so I've been struggling with these thoughts in my head. That I'm not good enough. I don't think I can make it. It was frustrating.

I was angry at myself & it came to a point that I was disappointed with God. I've found that the Bible includes detailed accounts of people sorely disappointed with God. Job & Moses had it out with God, as did Habakkuk, Jeremiah, & many of the unnamed psalmists. The psalmists do not rationalize anger or give abstract advice about pain; rather they express emotions vividly & loudly, directing their feelings primarily at God. The anguished conclusion of Psalm 88 provides ample evidence. From them I learn to bring to God whatever I feel about Him. I need not paper over my failures; it's far better to bring my weaknesses to Him, who alone has the power to heal.

I've always wondered, why do people cry when they win? Watch any contest, Miss Universe, American Idol, etc... It's just silly to cry. Shouldn't they be happy that they won? Today I experienced it for the first time, tears of joy. I just sat there & cried. Thinking of everything I went through. Remembering that He was there, carrying me through my darkest hour. I just felt so relieved & thankful. The journey hasn't ended just yet, there's still a long way to go. But I know He'll be there, holding my hand. I worship a God of miracles!

Times like this

A smile... A hug... Encouraging words... I'm sorry for your loss. & I'll be here if you ever need a friend that'll just sit in silence & listen. Yes, in times like this, we all try to do the best we can, knowing it won't be enough.